breakfast friends

so this is lovey bear,he oftentimes eat breakfast with mckinley,and if not him,then she usually has another freind with her...she does not like to eat alone...

...well,this morning when i told her it was time to eat, she ran to the living room and came back to the high chair having invited all of these guys!!!....we could barely get the tray on,but we managed,and she and her freinds had thier own little breakfast party this morn(:

princess and the frog...

cupcakes from McKinleys 1st birthday...more pictures later

FOR GRAMMIE

My little Ham...

Just a few recent shots of my one year old...she is changing so fast...i feel like i wake up to a new kid every morning...

My sweet Husband (:

Josh surprised me with a valentines dinner this week and took me out to Lavelle's...it was so yummy and sweet.I have to tell you people this.I know,im a retard...but i ordered roasted duck with a rasberry sauce and it had garlic mashed potatoes and steamed veggies on the side...i like to try new things....theres a time and a place and Lavelle's is pretty uppity,so i figured i might as well.In the words of our little Harley...IT WAS DE-LISH!!!I had the best clam chowder ive ever tasted as a side(and im picky abt my chowder)and coconut shrimp for appetizers...he ordered the worlds tastiest prime rib(he says it was better than turtle club)and then we went to chilis for dessert and had our fav...paradise pie...needless to say we were STUFFED but had a great time.We even dropped the baby off with Mrs.Joy so it was pretty romantic(: also he bought me a tanning package cuz ive been wanting one real bad(:

This is a little after the fact,but i thought id post pictures of the sparkleys he bought me for christmas(pictured above)cuz they are just so pretty.He also bought me all 5 seasons of THE OFFICE(one of my fav's) and the cute sketchers i wanted...i got totally spoiled...;P yay me!

MY GIRLS

you know what im thankful for????im thankful for my online friends. i know people get caught up on the internet,and wasting time,and even doing things they shouldnt online,but i have this group of girls that are my "online friends" and they are just super.we have made our internet time something that lifts each other up,and encourages and shares with one another,and its nice to have cuz i dont have a whole lot of friends to spend time with.i never feel guilty about spending time with these girls online,becasue they are truly my best friends and i look forward to the love and support i find with them each and every day.we have this private weight loss blog,had it goin on for about a year,and what a help and just a ton of fun it has been helping each other out and being part of a support group for each other.we have all accomplished so much more together,and it has just been a truly enjoyable experience.they keep me focused and sharpen me when i need sharpening(: i hope and think i mean the same to them.i have the best friends in the world,truly.Thankyou Lord for my girls(:

I LOVE YOU MCKINLEY

It will be exactly one year since i held that little stranger in my arms for the first time on thursday.It wasn't a great time in my life.It was pretty awful actually.For alot of reasons.Physically i wasnt ready.Emotionally i was in turmoil.So much pain.So tired.I wouldve turned back if id been given the choice.I remember feeling completely alone,but my husband must have been there,because i was holding onto someones neck since i couldnt stand alone.I remember whispering over and over"i cant do this".I remember passing out every other minute between contractions,round about the 24th-25th hour.i remember sweating like a pig and vomitting in the hallway because i got so dehydrated and hot from walking the halls for hours trying to make something happen.I remember begging them to check me round about the 26th hour...and them telling me i wasnt quite to a 4...i was certain at that point i was going to die...i had no strength left...i was giving up.Im pretty sure that was why my midwife called for my epideral a little bit early,because i had nothing left...hadnt for quite awhile.I understood what it felt like to be on the brink of death.

But the main thing i remember is when i got to see her and hold her for the first time.Everything else fades away when i look into those beautiful blue eyes,with no mistake who she got them from,they look just like her fathers,and she looks at me in wonder,seeing me for the first time.At that point all my pain was gone...all i knew was love...and every since that day, that little stranger has become such a part of us,of me,i cant imagine a life without her.

God knew i needed that baby girl two weeks early,for His own reasons,to get me through the trials that were heading my way...He knew what we needed this past year,to teach a couple of selfish people how to truly love,just when we needed it most.He knew and always knows what we need and gives us so much more than we deserve.What a wonderful Lord we have and I am just so thankful to Him for a little girl that has lighted my world throughout this past year,even in my darkest hours.

When im sad,she can make me smile through my tears.When im angry beyond reason,i see her,and everything comes back into focus..When i feel hopeless,she reminds me to be thankful for the good things.I wish i could freeze her in time,with her tiny toothy smile as she waddles towards me with her outstretched arms,and i pick her up and she whispers "hi mamma" . And everything is wonderful and perfect.

Picture of the Year...

what a tard

they cracked me...

...on the second day...had to send two of them to grammie's.wow.talk about hectic.it was insane...so the two older ones stayed with me and mac and josh,but the two littles went to stay with grammie...last night was interesting to say the least...having two babies in one tiny house...they took turns waking each other up screaming,and we got NO sleep whatsoever...so yeah...the idea was more fun than the reality...we miss the two littles,but things have calmed down considerably since grammie came and got them(:

we went to the library and got the older boys some books so they would have something to do on down time,so they spent the evening reading...and we had tacos and now they are watching star wars with uncle josh. i finally got my workout and shower in.yay me.

randomness,,,in the words of lanae...

So tomorrow is the start if what should be a pretty interesting week...Phil and Jenn are leaving for Hawaii and the 4 boys will be coming to stay with Josh and I until Sat,at which point they will be going to stay with grammie for the remaining five days...

We have lotsa stuff planned,like a library trip,perhaps a hockey game,pizza and cookie making,maybe go visit some friends,play with some art supplies,make some masterpeices,school,,,,

And we have to plan McKinley birthday party!!!its coming up quick...less than 2 weeks now!wow!my baby is growing up so fast...shes walking all over the place and starting to say words,its crazy how smart she is,she tries to comb her own hair,and brushes her two little teeth,and tries to mimmick anything i do...i was doing pushups the other day and got on the floor next to me and stuck her butt in the air and turned upside down...it was so cute...i have the cutest kid in the world....

IM A CLEPTO :0)

HERE ARE THE WORDS TO A SONG THAT ONE OF MY BLOGGER FRIENDS POSTED AWHILE AGO AND I LOVED SO MUCH I JUST THOUGHT I WOULD STEAL IT TO POST MYSELF(THANX CHRISTAL!)...IT TOUCHED MY LIFE RIGHT WHEN I NEEDED THE ENCOURAGEMENT...


I have unanswered prayers
I have trouble I wish wasn’t there
And I have asked a thousand ways
That You would take my pain away
That You would take my pain away

I am trying to understand
How to walk this weary land
Make straight the paths that crookedly lie
Oh Lord, before these feet of mine
Oh Lord, before these feet of mine

When my world is shaking
Heaven stands
When my heart is breaking
I never leave Your hands

When You walked upon the Earth
You healed the broken, lost, and hurt
I know You hate to see me cry
One day You will set all things right
Yea, one day You will set all things right

When my world is shaking
Heaven stands
When my heart is breaking
I never leave Your hands

Your hands
Your hands that shape the world
Are holding me, they hold me still
Your hands that shape the world
Are holding me, they hold me still

When my world is shaking
Heaven stands
When my heart is breaking
I never leave You when…

When my world is shaking
Heaven stands
When my heart is breaking
I never leave…
I never leave Your hands

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FAMILY FUN

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"Let the words of my mouth,and the meditation of my heart,be acceptable in thy sight,O Lord,my strength,and my redeemer."Psalm19:14

So the chub learned how to sign "please" today...ive been trying to get her to do it off and on for months and had kinda given up because she just didnt seem too interested,but this afternoon i was feeding her her sandwich and said say "please" and she started rubbing her belly(: it was so cute(:.so then i showed her the right way to do it,and all day she's been doing it,except for when i tried to show kluane at church,of course(:

Ive been reading through my bible the past few months,a chap. in Genesis,a chap. in Psalms, and a chap. in Matthew...anyways,in Genesis im reading about Abraham and Lot,and as im reading Lots story im thinking,what a sicko!!!like,i know these stories so well,i dont give them much thought usually,but wow....Lot was really messed up...In Psalms,im mostly just comforted by the Lord,and inspired at the same time.i always look forward to reading my Psalm,because it always seems like God is giving you exactly what you need to hear for the day and whatever situation you might be dealing with in your life.And Matthew is just interesting,i learn something new evrytime i read it.i was reading about the parables the other day and the different kinds of seeds that were sown and it is really thought provoking and makes you search your own heart out well to make sure your the "real thing" and just puts into perspective the false christians that are out there claiming one thing but living quite another.Sometimes i get so angry with all the hypocrasy but when i read this it just makes me sad because i know so many that dont truly know the Lord and they are so miserable and they are going to pay such a heavy price so very soon.So anger and indignation isnt really a good thing to feel towards them,maybe pity and compassion is more appropriate,and i try to find enough love in my heart to pray for them and their eternal souls.
I REALLY MISS THIS GIRL!!!

I talked to my best Tori girl the other day,and i just want everyone to kow that i am soooo very proud of her.She is doing so great and serving the Lord with her whole heart,and i can see such maturity in her and her spiritual life.Its so great to have a freind that is serious about serving the Lord and dealing with sin,and not making excuses for herself.Ive never seen someone who inspires me so much and has such a sweet attitude no matter what comes her way.Ive learned a ton from her the past few years,and she has really lifted me up the way a freind should when i needed it most this past year."iron sharpening iron"-a true friend and im so grateful.love you Tor!Keep it up,you are a rarety.


I better go finish cleaning my house,im gonna try to start going to bed earlier...so i can get up earlier...so i can excercise and read earlier...and then clean house earlier...so i can go to bed yet earlier!...its a viscious cycle...

JUST A COUPLE GOOFBALLS GOOFING AROUND...(:

WHAT A CRAZY KID...SHE GETS A LITTLE GOOFIER EVERYDAY...WONDER WHERE SHE GETS THAT FROM,...? :p

BEAUTIFUL GIRL

FOR BEK...


SHE REALLY DIDNT WANT HER PICTURE TAKEN RIGHT NOW...